Life is not as amazing as I think~

Life.. full of happiness and also sadness.. but for me, I think most of it would be sadness.. I have chose to be with you, to love you, and hope that we could be together happily, like what a normal couple would. But why you want to do this everytime ? Do you think that the person that is wrong is only me? Do you think is because I chase you last time, so you don't need to care me is it? How much do you care about me, I don't really know. From what I see, you don't really care for me at all.

And, today, why do you keep on asking me to buy the air ticket? Do you think the air ticket is only my decision ? Do you think I live with my parents currently ? Which I can ask anytime I want, decide anything I want? Ever thought that I need to ask my parents, need to ask my brother, need to get some advise from my sister in Melbourne, so that I would know which is the best decision for me and you?? I don't think you know all of this, because you never care to ask. You just know what is good for you, and I don't know where to you put me at. First or the last among you list.

But I don't care anything now, just hope that you will come and find me to chat again, and settle all of this. I have posted something of facebook, hope you will read this and that status too.

为了你。。。

我为了你放下了我的自尊， 是为了希望你有一天会改过。

就希望你不会越来越坏吧～

Blur~

I have no idea what you want and what do I want now. You say maybe you care too much and made yourself either happy, or not happy. But how much do I care about you, do you ever know ? I think you will say less than how much you care for me. But how much do I care for you, I don't need to tell anyone of say out. It's in my heart. Hope you will understand.

Randomness~

Suddenly I feel like writing something, but I have no idea what to write. Tomorrow having TSD test, good luck to all who are having TSD test tomorrow, and also to myself.

Might come back to write something more when I'm free =)

Back to KK~!

Today went back to KK le~ don't know is happy or sad ler... haha =p

Happy can come back eat and meet up with my friends and family...
Sad is cant see her for more than 1 month... =(

Haiz... Look on the bright side~! 1 month like that only mar... very fast de~ XD

haha =D That's all... Enjoy ur day everyone... Be Happy Always~! =)

2009 年的最后一天·。。。

I had no time to write this yesterday night, but I did write out the stuffs I want to write out here in my mobile phone... I know is a bit late, but I would like to express it out here~

我本来想着，2009年将会过得比任何一年开心，但是我所想的，是错的。反而变成最伤心的最后一天，我也经历了最难忘的一晚。这我一生人里都不会忘记的。昨天晚上你这样对我，可能你还不明白，不知道我有多难受；也许是我不懂你发生了什么事，面对什么问题，但是我希望你会告诉我听。最终，我还是想告诉你，我是不会放弃的！！！

听了一整晚的彩虹这首歌。这首歌里面，有一些部分是我现在的心情～

那裏有彩虹告訴我
能不能把願望還給我
為甚麼天這麼安靜
所有的雲都跑到我這裏

有沒有口罩一個給我
釋懷說太了多就成真不了
也許時間是一種解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥

看不見你的笑 我怎麼睡的著
你的身影這麼近我卻抱不到
沒有地球 太陽還是會繞
沒有理由 我也能自己找

你要離開 我知道很簡單
你說依賴 是我們的阻礙
就算放開 但能不能別沒收我的愛
當作我最後才明白

RAP:
看不見你的笑 要我怎麼睡得著
你的聲音這麼輕 我卻抱不到
沒有地球 太陽開始環繞環繞
沒有理由 我也能自己走掉
是我說了太多 就承受不了
也許時間是一種解藥 解藥
也是我選擇整瓶服下的毒藥

I don't understand...

Today was a weird day for me... started out nicely, ended up sadly... but I wonder, am I doing the right thing? or I'm doing wrongly? or I'm just didn't do anything? Every time I want to try and understand you more, I can feel that our relationship are getting worse~ or maybe I'm just thinking too much?

tomorrow going to Damai, hope I can have fun there and release everything that's irritating and annoying in my mind~

have a nice weekend everyone~ =)